My mind begins to wonder
My heart begins to race
As the memory of you
Drifts back into place
I got a picture of you smiling
With a sparkle in your eyes
You looked at me so gently
And kept me mesmerized
AS much as I tired
Your face wouldn't go away
Your eyes, your lips, your smile,
I thought of you all day
It was soon about 3
With you still on my mind
I thought while listening to music
In a flash it was 9
I made my bed
To get some rest
As I lay down
I thought of nothing less
The most important memories
Replayed over and over again
And I realized how I missed you
As the days replayed again
No, I hadn't known you very long
But you had such an effect on me
You captured my heart within a day
As I begin to fall wishing for you and me
The way it felt when we touched
The way you made me feel
It seemed that you were too perfect
To even be real
And that's when the tears
Begin to form in my eyes
They told myself how much I missed you,
But I did not want to cry
I hugged my teddy bear
To soften the pain
But it reminded me that it wasn't you,
And the tears they formed again
I remember the first night you kissed me,
How the silence spoke so many words,
There was so much silence but so much said,
you said nothing and I heard
I don't know why
Thinking of you hurts me so
It seems like we had both nothing and everything,
and I still can't let that go
I pick up the phone
With hope in my heart
I dial the number
Still sitting in the dark
The operator answered
I dial the number to your room
She connects me, no trouble
I might talk to you soon
But no surprise
Your gone yet again
She says you'll be home
She just doesn't know when
So I set down the phone
Curling up into a ball
Somehow convincing myself
That you don't care at all
So once again those days replay
But this time I let a couple tears fall
I stop myself before it gets to far
I let some of it go, but not it all
I want to cry but at the same time I don't,
But I know I have to be tough,
Because in my heart I know
That tears are not enough...
tears are nor enough..
A memory !!
You left me wondering around
No longer do I feel safe and sound
Stumbling on your favorite blue shirt
Cant keep in all of this hurt
I loved you so damn much
That now I cry for your touch
That no longer comes my way
No matter how much I beg and pray
Into my bed I crawl alone
Just to smell your cologne
It was a week ago since you said goodbye
But your smell still lingers by
It fills my body with such distress
Turning me into a total mess
You didn't think of what you would do to me
All you wanted was to be free
So me being stupid I opened the door
I let you through and cried even more
I closed it shut and heard you leave
Footstep heading away from me
You say that we weren't meant to be
How do you dare say that to me
I hold my broken heart in my hand
Trying to keep it together the best I can
But no matter how much glue I use
I still cry and feel abused
For in this prison called my room
I keep memories of me and you
They haunt me every second of the day
I just wish this pain would go away
I gathered all your things today
Put them in a box and hid them away
But I kept something to make me smile
I found it and took it from the pile
A picture of you holding me
A memory of what we used to be
why even try..
You said you loved me
and you still say it's true
that doesn't justify all the shit that you do.
You hurt me
every single time that you lied
tore my insides up
shattered my pride.
But yet I stood by you
through thin and through thick
was depressed at times
even made me sick
I loved you, and hell i still do
Even for all the shit you put me through.
I love you each and every day
even though you cheated on me
I gave those hurt feelings away.
I opened myself up to you and this I do not regret
Wrote a lot of poems for you like
Sweet Dreams Princess, and Did you forget?
Maybe I spent the last few nights barking up the wrong tree
Maybe I am dreaming and It's not meant to be
But I won't take you back, It's the last time I say bye
I already gave you everything, so why even try.