Another day died,another night crept
few more tears demiced from the loan pair of my wet eyes..
like everyday my black heart scarring darker still
graving the pain that's clinched in my heart
blood began churning in my brain,ripping my heart apart
wondering what has occoured,what have passed
harking back the faded memories of those disastrous eyes
damning my fortune and myself who was the cause.
When I close my eyes and notice that there is nothing I can do but dream
For you have left me here with nothing but visions of my past..
belive me my heart groans
Till' I can no longer remember
my darling dreams Prewritten scenes,
whatever i felt is my own
So to save face I'll take my place
Where I may safely feel alone.
I know there's aint no mercy, aint mercy left for me
but belive me i hate proving my love everyday
i hate when they say i broke your trust
cause i can never,may be because that thing never existed
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Alone in my battle in front of this heartless world
I don't expect anything,cause i know there's aint no mercy left for me
but wish to say,let me cry for my solitude
leave me alone,with my memories
don't kill them,keep them alive
to be burried with my own grave
Ashes Of My Pain
"One day you'll walk alone"
Only yesterday they told me you were gone
All these normal people, will I find another
one?
Monkey on my back, Aching my bones
I forgot you said "One day you'll walk alone"
I said I need you, does that make me wrong?
Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong?
My heard was blackened, It's bloody red
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head?
Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand?
In a dream I cannot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted to chaos
Lights shined on my path,
Turn bad days into good
Turn breakdowns into blocks, I smashed 'em
Cause I could
My brain was Labored, My head would spin
Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in
The rain comes down, cold wind blows
The plans we made are back up on the road
Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown
Remember that you said
"One day you'll walk alone"
I m dead
I'm alive but dead, awake but asleep
As friend gather round and mourners they weep
My mind thinks of all the things I have done
My body is cold but my heart beat goes on
And on..............and on
As they lower me down into that hole in the ground
I scream out for help but they hear not a sound
I fear at the lid, my fingers they bleed
Is this happening to me or is it just a dream
Summon the dead..........
Baphomet's call..........
Blood on my hands........
"Let me out of here"
My bones are decayed, my flesh it doth rot
I'm lying in silk, take the lid off this box
My lungs gasp for air, my eyes scream for sight
I promise the rise of my body this night
Summon the dead..........
Baphomets call...........
Blood on my hands........
Screaming in torment.....
I'm felling you all......
Take heed of my plea.....
Answer my call...........
I'm gonna be free........
One Sided Love
Isn't that what people say?
That one-sided love is the hardest.
Always like a master handling his puppet.
Always like a kid playing with a toy.
Love is said to be the greatest feeling.
Perfect in its own way.
Yet flawlessness doesn't exist.
So there must be an error.
The mistake of a one-sided love.
The way that love is warm, it is the same way cruel.
Though it may be a blessing.
It leaves behind a victim to suffer.
In this case, me.
You have no idea what you left me with.
All the memories you threw away, I chose to gather.
The thoughts of you walking away.
The question of why I wasn't good enough?
Self doubt which refused to fade.
Each and every tear fell for you.
I spent hours in the rain...in the dark.
The only places I could reach for comfort.
The only shadows that taught me to escape...
Just for a little while.
And all the wishes wasted on you.
The whispers I choked out into the night.
The times where I could hardly breathe...
Just because you were you.
Just because you broke into my heart.
Just because.
Well...now I'm tired.
To a certain point where I can't stand you.
So take the chains off of me.
Take all the things I've done for you.
Consider them my last.
And still you won't know how precious...
My heart was in the care of your hands.
Goodbye.
I say a one-sided love lacks faith.
That this kind of love can't clash with destiny.
And that love might mean something delicate and pretty...
In the beginning.
However, just like a rose...
Everything beautiful has to wither and die...
In the end.
And this is the conclusion of this one-sided love story.
Heavenly to tragic.
But don't people also say that, to a finish there is another start.
So hope shouldn't fail or diminish.
As these petals of pain disappear.
Love will bloom once again.
This will always and forever be fate.
When fear turns to reality
A dream, a nightmare Getting True Today
To fathom the deepest fear
i was living with a constant pain
that left me insane today,I'll have to bear.
all i can do is nothing other than
scribbling my thoughts that issues from a broken heart
in hope that someday you will understand me
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
I was pretending to be floating strong
But found I was sinking
In to still water
loosing my cutie pie forever
I can't even say a goodbye.........
When everything with meaning is shattered, broken, screaming
And I'm lost inside this darkness and I fear I won't survive.
I told u the truth,bt u think i lied,
I could pray and trick with a double tongue, but the only fool here's me
I choose the way to go, but the road won't set me free
Cos I wish you'd see me, baby, save me, I'm going crazy
Tryin' to keep me real, keep myself alive
i won't change,no matter you are away from my sight,
i m sitting in this dark place wid tears running my cheeks
noone can see me,
i m alone on the asphalt underneath,
ur picture is ripping my heart apart
may b after that i cannot love anyone
or may b i'll die.
Hmmmmmmmm..............This day will die tonight and there ain't no exception
I shouldn't wait for nothing to wait for
I won't cry for my solitude, lay my head and dream of you
but i would like you to know that this Feel is too Painful
nd too much for the time to erase,I'll bear it too.
I don't know what i m......!!!!
I am who I am and I'm not ashamed
Cause I'm a human, I'm not a freak
I live cause I breathe, so I'm unique!
I have no regrets,that i loved u
no matter what you thinks
I feel your words sting, yeah they hurt
But I won't give up, I'll fight my own way
As I was always taught that
It's time to let go, it's time to carry on with the show
don't mourn what is gone, greet the dawn
Just few words for you
Beauty,what is it all about?
If you're rotten all the way through on the inside
Call me ugly, stupid or too small
That's how I'm born and how I'll be
gudbye (uTiE pIe
I hate Myself
This is part two of the duo,
the dark side of the mirror, if you will.
To every light there is a shadow(My Shadow).
Something to keep in mind.
There is no sense in siphoning water from an empty well.
There is no light in an empty cave.
A desert knows no hope.
I laugh.
She’s gone and all I have is this angst and an ugly broken red thing that used to be a heart.
I bathe in my bitterness and love it like a pig in its mud.
I think I’ll get a tattoo.
Her face maybe.
Maybe her name.
Maybe both with a curse beneath.
I laugh. Maybe I’ll just write a song about her.
A song about how much I - love her need her miss her adore her.
A song about how mine was the neverlasting love.
The great love of all time.
How she’ll never be loved like I loved her.
I laugh. Maybe I’ll just egg her Home,
Sneak up on her place at midnight with a carton of eggs and open fire on that goddamned home of hers.
I laugh, but now with bitterness.
I sit in the cool, dark night of my bedroom and wonder if she has someone else.
It kills a part of me to think that.
That’s what hurts most.
The without. Without her. Without us. Without love.
Knowing that when the armor falls, when my bitterness burns away.
there is only… Without. And it’s here, and now that the idea of Forever scares me.
Once it had been a dream, this Forever.
Now it’s a nightmare. Forever… Without. Without. Without…
No word has felt so lonely in my mouth.
I look within and see my tiny, angry self, hating even as I Love.
I laugh.
Maybe I’ll just write a suicide note