I always th0ught we'd gr0w 0ld t0gether.
Facing each new day.
But n0w, in the tears that fall up0n my face.
Y0ur mem0ry fades away.
We walked with 0ur pr0blems in silence.
Dawn falling int0 dusk.
Leafs c0llecting at 0ur c0ld and tired feet.
Al0ng with what grieved us.
In my bedr00m, surr0unded by empty walls.
I want t0 scream and sh0ut.
My m0uth 0pens, but the t0rtured w0rds...
Just w0n't c0me 0ut.
Y0u! This girl I began t0 l0ve.
G0t l0st f0r a "N0thing".
Everything we'd built, destr0yed.
0ver 0ne careless fling.
Used t0 think I was s0 lucky.
I had it all.
N0thing unkn0wn is kn0wable, s0 depressed.
Y0u just watched me fall.
My heart bleeds.
The sn0w bec0mes red.
H0w life has m0cked y0u.
Were y0u ever here? mem0ries g0ne, dead.
Y0ur like salt 0n an 0pen w0und.
Reminding me y0u 0nce were here.
Warm like the bl00d in my veins.
The l0ve I had f0r y0u, s0 dear.
In my dist0rted, br0ken dreams.
S0 empty, yet real.
I'm fl0ating thr0ugh air.
I t0uch y0ur face, h0ping t0 feel.
This fr0zen silence bel0ngs t0 y0u.
I'm all that y0u see.
I 0nly want revenge.
Giving back what y0u gave t0 me.
S0rry I l0ved y0u s0.
And y0u didn't feel the same.
When I think 0f what c0uld have been.
What a waste! Such a shame!
St0ne by st0ne, I'll re-build my life.
I'm str0nger when hardest hit.
I kn0w 0nly t0 well.
This is the time I must never quit.
My c0nsci0us asks the questi0n.
I l0ng t0 hear.
Is the grass really greener 0n the 0ther side?
My c0nsci0us asks the questi0n.
I will always fear.
Frozen love
tears are nor enough..
My mind begins to wonder
My heart begins to race
As the memory of you
Drifts back into place
I got a picture of you smiling
With a sparkle in your eyes
You looked at me so gently
And kept me mesmerized
AS much as I tired
Your face wouldn't go away
Your eyes, your lips, your smile,
I thought of you all day
It was soon about 3
With you still on my mind
I thought while listening to music
In a flash it was 9
I made my bed
To get some rest
As I lay down
I thought of nothing less
The most important memories
Replayed over and over again
And I realized how I missed you
As the days replayed again
No, I hadn't known you very long
But you had such an effect on me
You captured my heart within a day
As I begin to fall wishing for you and me
The way it felt when we touched
The way you made me feel
It seemed that you were too perfect
To even be real
And that's when the tears
Begin to form in my eyes
They told myself how much I missed you,
But I did not want to cry
I hugged my teddy bear
To soften the pain
But it reminded me that it wasn't you,
And the tears they formed again
I remember the first night you kissed me,
How the silence spoke so many words,
There was so much silence but so much said,
you said nothing and I heard
I don't know why
Thinking of you hurts me so
It seems like we had both nothing and everything,
and I still can't let that go
I pick up the phone
With hope in my heart
I dial the number
Still sitting in the dark
The operator answered
I dial the number to your room
She connects me, no trouble
I might talk to you soon
But no surprise
Your gone yet again
She says you'll be home
She just doesn't know when
So I set down the phone
Curling up into a ball
Somehow convincing myself
That you don't care at all
So once again those days replay
But this time I let a couple tears fall
I stop myself before it gets to far
I let some of it go, but not it all
I want to cry but at the same time I don't,
But I know I have to be tough,
Because in my heart I know
That tears are not enough...
A memory !!
You left me wondering around
No longer do I feel safe and sound
Stumbling on your favorite blue shirt
Cant keep in all of this hurt
I loved you so damn much
That now I cry for your touch
That no longer comes my way
No matter how much I beg and pray
Into my bed I crawl alone
Just to smell your cologne
It was a week ago since you said goodbye
But your smell still lingers by
It fills my body with such distress
Turning me into a total mess
You didn't think of what you would do to me
All you wanted was to be free
So me being stupid I opened the door
I let you through and cried even more
I closed it shut and heard you leave
Footstep heading away from me
You say that we weren't meant to be
How do you dare say that to me
I hold my broken heart in my hand
Trying to keep it together the best I can
But no matter how much glue I use
I still cry and feel abused
For in this prison called my room
I keep memories of me and you
They haunt me every second of the day
I just wish this pain would go away
I gathered all your things today
Put them in a box and hid them away
But I kept something to make me smile
I found it and took it from the pile
A picture of you holding me
A memory of what we used to be
why even try..
You said you loved me
and you still say it's true
that doesn't justify all the shit that you do.
You hurt me
every single time that you lied
tore my insides up
shattered my pride.
But yet I stood by you
through thin and through thick
was depressed at times
even made me sick
I loved you, and hell i still do
Even for all the shit you put me through.
I love you each and every day
even though you cheated on me
I gave those hurt feelings away.
I opened myself up to you and this I do not regret
Wrote a lot of poems for you like
Sweet Dreams Princess, and Did you forget?
Maybe I spent the last few nights barking up the wrong tree
Maybe I am dreaming and It's not meant to be
But I won't take you back, It's the last time I say bye
I already gave you everything, so why even try.
A Victim Of Love
I try and try to find you,
But you're never there,
I try and try to cry to you,
But you never care,
How I love someone who isn't even there?
I try and try to get over you,
But in my heart you stay,
I try and try to make it end,
But I can do is pretend,
I'm pretending,
Always pretending,
I pretend to not care that you're never there,
I pretend that everything's fine,
Even when there's chaos in my mind,
I pretend you give a shit,
That I'm going through this,
When it comes to the issues,
You can't pick and choose,
Deal with this,
Goddamn, this wasn't the plan!
We were supposed to work,
You and I,
Now all I do is cry,
Is this what they meant when they said,
You'll never forget,
You'll never forget the one who made it all fall apart,
How can I when she's still in my heart?
How come they don't tell you,
That when it comes to love,
There's nothing you can do,
That when you fall,
There's a chance you can lose it all,
They only tell you it's beautiful,
That lies!
It isn't at all,
At least not the way I fall,
You fall fast and hard,
And it hurts,
And you try to make it stop,
But that only makes it worse,
You have tears in your eyes,
And it doesn't feel right,
But you fall anyway,
And to her it was just another day,
When your in love you're blind, you're numb,
Let's admit it,
You're stupid, you're dumb,
If it's for real well that's fine,
My story isn't that kind,
It's the kind when you lose your mind,
If it's love you want,
Then pain you'll find
meaning of love
We once fell in love.
Never put someone else above.
Thought this was meant to be.
What happened, Why didn't we see.
Slowly became unhappy.
Suddenly we fell apart.
This instantly hurt my heart.
I think about us everyday.
Miss you in every way.
You hide how you feel.
Relax your mind and chill.
Thought you were dreaming no this is real.
You act as if you don't care.
But I know the way you lie is very rare.
I will always love you I swear.
So tell me how you feel I dare.
love ..
The very first time I saw you,
Was special how we met.
You took me by complete surprise.
I knew my heart was set.
As days flew by, we talked again,
But you never seemed to care.
I tried my best to help you out,
By a favor here, or a favor there.
Although I made a fast approach,
Our friendship grew and grew.
I realized how deep I cared,
But the feeling I felt was new.
In time I became attached to you.
From a hug, I wouldn't let go.
I soon saw how close we were,
And the feeling was good to know.
For you, I wrote sweet letters and songs.
You were on my mind all day.
The thought of sleeping was nowhere near,
Unless I knew you were okay.
It hit me then, what I was in -
A unique and precious love.
For the person I said was only mine,
Was an angel sent from above.
The minutes without you turned into days,
And the seconds with you flew fast.
I could only wish to see you more,
And make each moment last.
The times I spent with you,
Were what made my heart complete.
I knew one thing for sure,
Without you, my future was obsolete.
And now, we love just the same,
As it doubles day by day.
I stare deep into your precious eyes,
Yet I'm still speechless to what I should say.
With you, I'm in a whole new world.
You bring out the best in me.
It's hard to picture you not there,
When you taught me who to be.
Yes, the road ahead gets hard,
When things may only seem rough.
But because you and I try so much,
We'll stay strong and get by tough.
Though problems may lie ahead someday,
And either of us could be right;
I promise to always be by your side,
And I promise my heart, so hold it tight.
And so, each night, beside my bed,
When there's only bright stars to see;
I pray that we may never give up,
And will always remain you and me.
memory of love
Upon the dusk of love
Beyond the pinnacle of happiness
There is a love once lived
The songbirds once sang a melody
The sky bathed in seemingly endless light
There are but visions of the past
Dreams of a love once lived
Love was endless it was thought
Never ending, full and true
Now it's enveloped in endless rue
Never to be felt again
The sky is now dark, grey clouds looming
No dreams of love again blooming
Life not lonely and desolate
Now just memories of a love once lived
summon of a broken heart
I look to my fingers to write out some wisdom,
I look up above to try and read the Kingdom,
I look all around, in and out, even crawl through to see,
But all I can find is there are no answers for me.
Hesitant at first to admit my feelings inside,
But as time went on, I could no longer hide.
I fell, and fell hard, and had not one regret,
When my heart found love, my mind was set.
You, you were wonderful, too good to be true,
That saying is valid, for I no longer have you.
You came and went, leaving me alone
And now I'm recovering in the place from which I was thrown.
I know more now than when first I came,
What I know now is my feelings are not the same.
So mixed up and jumbled; never making sense
The only thing clear is life is no white picket fence.
I miss falling into you, knowing that you're there,
But now I know that's with somebody else you share.
I won't ask questions because silence will follow,
But I just want to know how much longer my heart will be hollow.
Taste the rain
Looking in your eyes
I feel myself falling in love with you
You said I love you
And I said it too
We went to our very own special spot
For no real reason at all
We sat and talked and looked at one another
And then the rain began to fall
We could have left just as quick as we came
But no, you wanted to stay in the rain
You asked me a question I’ll never forget
Have you ever tasted the raindrops?
I looked at you funny and you gave me a sigh
The cutest look, as I wondered, why?
Why, did you ask me to taste the rain?
Well, what did have to loose or gain?
I watched you with a careful eye
And did the same as you
You were looking up at the cloudy sky
But my eyes were stuck on you like glue
I lifted my head to look at the sky
And closed my eyes really tight
Just as I thought I’d caught a raindrop
You suddenly held me tight
I opened my eyes with slight alarm
As you kissed me soft and sweet
I remember that kiss like it was yesterday
I still feel those raindrops on my cheek
I tasted the raindrops like I never had before
It was worth every second of bliss
Every time I think of that moment
I think of my raindrop kiss
We sat close together on that one special rock
And we held each other tight
Then almost as suddenly as it came
The sun came out from beneath the rain
The most beautiful colors I’ve ever seen
Came out on the western sky
The sun was setting and the moment was perfect
More than any money could buy
As the sun slowly set and the sky lit up
You began carving our names in our special rock
I told you I would never forget this moment
In my heart this memory is locked
As our names were finished and permanently engraved
We watched the sun finish its day
We slowly got up to leave this place
Which was a year ago this May
I haven’t been to that spot in a year
Where did all the time go?
I will visit this place alone this time
And I will finally have to let go
This memory will be in my heart forever
But you will not remain in my mind
I don’t know if that love, will be seen again
For that love I cannot find
I will go to this spot as we promised we would
But you will not be there this time
Why is it that you can’t keep your promise?
I know that I’m keeping mine
Never again will I taste the raindrops
The way I did with you
And when I go to this spot again
I will say goodbye to you.
Mistake
It's becoming more evident
Much more obvious to me
I thought much more of you
Than you ever thought of me
Was this my biggest mistake
Letting myself think you cared
Was I just your marionette
With heartstrings open and bared
With me left here still thinking
What was false, what was true
So puzzling and so complex
I’m left to await another clue
On my heartstings you played
Each left with a loving memory
Yet I still have those questions
Do you ever think about me
I’m wondering why all the intrigue
Now why all of this mystery
Why am I left here hanging
Your the one that holds the key.
slow tears
I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek